It has been a while since I have decided to write in my personal blog (glennhawkins.com), and personally I didn’t really like where it was going or what I was posting.  Overall, I think my mindset of making money online hindered what I really wanted to say.  I did profit and make a good chunk of money through online ventures, however I don’t believe it is right for me.  I have tried and I just can’t get it to work (I guess some things aren’t right for everyone right?).  But I will tell you a quick story.  I had created a landing page for ringtones, and someone had copied it all (literally).  Basically long story short, I kept receiving calls from my affiliate managers who kept asking me for my W9 forms.  In the end this fool made me $900+ in 4 days.  I wasn’t complaining, I was just laughing thinking about how much money he lost testing out keywords.  But in the long run I know he is probably raking in the mula.

What I want to do and want to be?

As I stated above, I didn’t really like where my blog was headed.  Now, with a change in mind and less than a year from graduating from college, I think I will start posting about my personal life, experiences, and goals I plan on achieving (hence the “New Chapter” in the heading).  Ever since I got screwed over at UCSB for majoring in Business Economics, my mind has been racing and thinking a lot.  You hear people preech that College isn’t for everyone, and I truely believe this.  I for one would drop out in a heart beat if it wern’t for my parents and less than a year to go for graduation.  I sit in lectures and sections hating everything about the classroom, espeically the shitty professors the school hires.  One question I ask is, why do we do this to ourselves?  For clearer elaboration, why do we put ourselves through this shithole we call a institution to throw away our money and waste our lives away with countless hours studying in the library (well for the ones that don’t want to be engineers, doctors, etc.).

The only reason why we do this is because it’s a social norm which has been grinded into our brains/minds ever since we were kids.  “We all want to get a job, marry, have kids, and die happy right?”.  NOT.  What you really are saying is “I want to be a slave for the rest of my life, working my ass off at a 10 hour job everyday, and spend little time with my family at night when I get home”.  That is a shitty life if you ask me (unless you like your job, and by job, I mean a real job, not your own business).  What the fuck were we put on this earth to do? No one knows – if they claim they do then they’re just fucking stupid (sorry for the bluntness).

I was raised a Christian, and I do believe in God, however, it is hard for me to believe something when there has never been any hard evidence.  This world is truely fucked up.  People over in the Middle East having been fighting a war over “Holy Land” for as long as I can remember plus thousands and thousands of years.  Uhh get a clue you guys, you are killing your loved ones over some piece of land…A PIECE OF LAND!  Why not all live in harmony and enjoy the world?  I truely believe that we shouldn’t be slaves for others and that we should enjoy the world we live in.  By this I mean traveling, playing with your kids, and doing what you want to do in life – not being told what to do.  There is all this stress with getting a job when you graduate.  Why enroll in school for 21+ years and then put yourself in prison for another 40-50 working your ass off?

New Chapter

Sorry for the rambling on and on about nothing, but I had to say it.  In the end, what this blog is going to be about is my life, what I think, and what I plan on doing.  I’m really thinking hard about researching and starting a Non-Profit Organization (NPO).  I am going to see what I can dig up over winter break and see if it is even a possibility.  I know I will have to get a board of directors, a lawyer, and a lot of paper work filed, but I decided if it seems somewhat achievable, I will make it my “project” for winter/spring quarter in college to throw a fundraising event for diabetes in Santa Barbara. And if successful, expand it nationally.  I also want to talk about other business startups and ventures that I plan on starting with my brother.  I’m really scared about going out into the real world, because as of right now I have nothing on the table and I certainly do not want to be working a 9-5 job.

I’ve always imagined myself growing up being filthy rich – driving my dream car, living in my mansion, and happily married with a son and daughter.  It is hard for me to accept the fact that right now, nothing of that is in reach.  That will change soon.  In the end, I want to better my life and share everything that happens day in and day out.  There are some experiences which I do want to share, but right now I don’t believe it is the right time to write about them because you may or may not agree with them.  Let me tell you, there are some things in this world which you can’t even comprehend in words.  I will leave you with some wise words from Kevin Hines (who tried to commit suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge), who just spoke at my school.  Even though it was mandatory for me to go, I actually liked what he had to say.  If he ever speaks at your school for free, I would encourage you all to go.

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift.” – Kevin Hines

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